I never thought I'd be in the situation that I am in right now.
At least never with you.
But now I'm standing at a crossroad where I don't know which way I should go.
I feel aloof, hurt, and disappointed.
I know you're sorry and has asked for forgiveness.
And I want to forgive you but somethings holding me back and I don't know why.
It's a feeling that I can't quite put words to describe it.
My heads saying one thing and my heart is saying another.
I just don't know if I can ever look at you or feel about you in the way I did before.
And I don't know how long it'll take me to "recover".
Maybe you're right, maybe its me.
And this is my chance to work on myself. My self- esteem especially with this situation.
But a girls six sense never fails her, and I felt it from the start.
Maybe I'm over analyzing everything, but my idea was reinforced through this whole time.
And I can't just put it aside anymore, can't ignore the insecurity anymore
Not after this time.
I need time, to think, to analyze and to figure out the best solution for me.
"Time heals what reason cannot"
